"I didn't realize until tonight that peace doesn't come
from putting my life in God's hands, it comes from the knowledge that it's not
mine to begin with. It has been His from the beginning. I in my humanness must
step aside and let Him do His work through me, because I am His."
I found the above quote in a journal of Sara's after she passed away. It didn't have a date on it, so I don't know specifically where she was at in her journey. What I pictured was her in prayer
struggling to find peace in her life when she was facing so much unknown.
What was going to happen with her health?
How was she going to pay her bills?
What was her purpose in life?
Will she ever be able to go outside again?
I can only imagine that there were these and many other
questions rolling around in her head, with no easy answers.
Until the point she
wrote the above quote. Until she heard wisdom that only God could provide.
She
found peace when she realized it wasn’t about her putting her life in God's
hands, because it really wasn't her life to begin with.
It isn't our life, it isn't our bodies, it isn't ours… It's
His.
How selfish we have become with lives that are really
God's. We must start living our lives selflessly instead of selfishly. God
calls us to serve others, not ourselves.
It doesn’t matter the topic. It could be the topic of
abortion or gender; ethnicity or social class. The point is, we don't have the
right to make decisions about anything without surrendering to God. We don't
have a right to make decisions that are His to make. Our role is the step aside
and let God take the wheel. Let Him do His
work through us.
In the Lord's prayer we say "…thy will be done on earth
as it is in heaven." We are praying that something will happen that has
not yet happened. We are praying that God will bring about His heavenly purpose
on earth. We are praying that God would use us to do His will. We are making
ourselves available to do the will of our heavenly Father, to fulfill his
purpose.
Finding peace and joy in life will come from surrendering
our lives to God and realizing that not only is it not about us, it's not
really ours to begin with.
If we really trust Him, believe that He doesn't make mistakes and surrender our lives to Him, what would our world be like?