Do you ever have a conversation
with yourself or probably more accurately, an argument with yourself.
Since I have lost Dad and Sara I have daily (feels like
constant) conversations with myself and sometimes when I am really frustrated
with myself, it turns into an argument between my head and my heart.
I miss them so very much. I long for their hug, their conversation,
their wisdom (that is my heart speaking). Then my head argues with my
heart. “You know they are so much
happier”. “How selfish of you to want them back for your own needs.” “They are
still with you in spirit.”
So, the question is, how do I get my head and heart to
agree? Like other things in life when conflict happens, how do you come to a
compromise?
So, I come here to find the wisdom Sara left
behind…what did I find… CHOOSE , JOY, PRAISE, GOD, FAITH, etc.
“He knows my past, present and future. He is surprised by
nothing. He is with me, never leaves me even when I feel alone, and holds me up
even when I think I am standing on my own two feet. He is good. All the time.
And I am going to praise Him through it.” – Gitz
Oh…her wisdom…
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by
prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to
God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Jesus Christ.” – Philippians 4:6-7
Oh… God’s wisdom…
As I am preparing this Lenten season for the Resurrection, I
am so very thankful. Thankful for all Jesus endured in order for us to experience
eternal life. Now that I have
experienced the loss of ones that I have loved so deeply, that thankfulness has
even become even more meaningful. Knowing that dad and Sara are together with
the risen Lord helps both my head and my heart!
So, why do I keep arguing with myself? I think it's because I am jealous that God has them now...I am thankful he shared them with me as long as he did...my selfishness wanted them longer! J
I am choosing…peace, joy, kindness, faithfulness…I am
choosing to trust GOD!
