Monday, December 1, 2008

Thanks and Giving

It's crazy what a difference a week can make. Tonight as I unloaded the dishwasher and lifted a plate into the cupboard I realized that last week at this time I couldn't even push the button on my remote control. I like this week better. :)

Sorry I skipped out on you for a bit... while I'm tougher than I look I'm afraid there are going to be moments now and then when that won't  cut it no matter how determined I am. Last Sunday happened to start one of those extremely unpleasant times... I'm quite the organized person but I can also be quite the procrastinator, which means I didn't have any spare blog posts written for a day when I wasn't all that functional. I debated about whether you'd worry more that someone else was posting or if you'd assume worse things if nothing was posted at all... so it was good old Susie to the rescue!

[Now that I've written "good old Susie" I have a feeling she would want me to tell you that she's a whopping two days younger than me, so old isn't an adjective that really fits her.]  :)

Susie asked me what she should write and I was in too much pain to chat at that moment so I said, "Just say whatever. It will be fine." I wasn't in so much pain that I had completely lost my mind, however, because I quickly retracted that and said to just tell you all I'm fine, not to worry and I'd be back before you missed me. Susie has known me far too well for far too many years to give her carte blanche... especially when I have written posts about her bad influence on me. Luckily, she took pity on me and kept it to the basics. :) I may just ask her to guest post on the blog for fun someday... as long as I get to approve the content.

This is a photo of Susie and Meg... two of my friends who ride to my rescue more often than they should have to. Cute, aren't they?

I think for future reference (this is the organized part of me) I'm going to have some sort of generic post/photo that I'll put up if it's physically not possible for me to write that day (this is also the part of me that knows I'll still be a procrastinator and not have extra posts on hand). I promise I won't do it if I'm just having a dry spell thinking up topics... it will be for actual sick days only! But when/if that happens, seriously don't worry. I'll be back to the blog before you have a chance to miss me too much.

So, before the detour, my original idea for last week was to do a post each day about ways I've been given things to be thankful for. While the sentiment is a week late, I think the good things are still obvious...

Like the fact that I can lift my arms to the keyboard and type now.

And the fact that my energy is getting better each day.

And the fact that I have my killer bathtub for long, therapeutic soaks.

And the fact that I have friends like Susie who I can call and ask to do a blog post for me.

And the fact that my dog was remarkably calm and careful with me when I wasn't at my best.

Mostly, I'm thankful for all of you who were so very kind in the comment section. You all make it fun for me to get up in the morning and see you here... and you just can't know how much I appreciated your kindness this past week. Thanks for giving all you do to me. :)


  1. Although I don't comment here much, I just wanted to say that I thought about you many times during the week and I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling better.

  2. @crystal: Thanks so much... you can't imagine how much that means to me. I appreciate it. And feel free to comment as often as you'd like! :)

  3. it's amazing to have friends like that in your life. You are blessed!
    I'm glad you are doing better. I'm so sorry to hear you had some rough days. Knowing that there are good days ahead helps you get through the tough ones I know.

    I totally know what you mean about commenters making you have something to look forward to in the morning. It's just good to know people care.


  4. @rachel: I am blessed; and I know I've done nothing grand enough in my life to deserve all the friendships and blessings I've been graced with. But yes, knowing people care makes all the difference to me mentally and spiritually. I know I'm awfully glad whenever you show up :) Hope your cold has been getting better...

  5. So glad to see you´re feeling better.
    A question: (ignore if it's too private) When your pain gets so bad, do you get a feeling of hopelessness, or do you know that it will get better eventually and stay optimistic? Just looking for some insight.
    Because when I get really bad "pain attacks", rationally I know it will get better, but emotionally the pain just gets to me and I kind of shut everything off. I don't know. It's hard to stay rational in so much pain.

    Just curious how you handle it. :)

  6. Hey girly! You really inspire me, you know it??!! I thought about you a lot last week and prayed for the pain to go away and for you to get better.

    You inspire me to get off my rear-end and do something even when I do not want to. I am blessed, but I am also blessed to have you as a little bloggy friend!

    Thanks for your inspiration and I really hope you are feeling better!

  7. Well, now. You sound a whole lot better. It's good to see you back in action. Our little furry friends are very much in tune with us and worry about us a lot, you know.

    Hope every day brings a new dimension of "feel good" to you.

  8. I have been praying for you! And I will continue..

  9. Hey, Gitz, I soooooo appreciate your upbeat, encouragement-to-those-of-us-who-don't-deal-with-what-you-do, and insightful blog. I deal with my own disabilities and whatnot, but through you I can see that I can get through anything!

  10. I'm so, so, so, glad that you are feeling better! Truly I am. I look forward to years and years of reading your upbeat inspiring words. A day without Gitz just isn't a day at all:)XO Libby

  11. Oooooooooooooooooh - I just went and checked out your Killer Tub. It is fantastic!!! With my slowly progressing mobility problems ( along with the vestibular stuff), we have been talking about the possiblity of getting one of these sometime in the future. I'm so glad that I now "know" someone who has one! Thanks for sharing.

  12. Truly good to hear your voice again! I beg to differ that you haven't done anything "grand in life to deserve all the friendships and blessings..." :) I see how you accepted illness, physical disability and mighty pain, all with grace. That alone is grand. But you show up every day and give friendship, inspiration, comforting words, encouragement, and humor. More than deserving! More than grand! Thanks for sharing Gitz.

    BTW: I am SO jealous of that killer bathtub! SO, SO, SO!

  13. I am SO GLAD to read that you are feeling better! Welcome back to the waste of time web, but it's so much fun!

  14. Dang, Gitz. I checked out to go home for Thanksgiving and it seems like I missed a lot.
    Glad you are back.
    I'm back too. We can be two backs together.

  15. @anna g: I'll try to write a post on that kind of topic soon... you know, I think dealing with it comes with time, just like my pain tolerance has gotten better so has the mental aspect of staying calm. There are moments where I am barely holding on and want to put my head through the wall, I'm not going to lie. But even in those moments there is something deep down reminding me it will pass. The pain is always high... I know it won't go away, but the extremes always ebb and flow. But the trust that it will calm down just comes with time and experience I think. Make a point to pray for strength in those times when you're well, too... not just when it's bad. The more you make that your focus, the better. Hope that helps.

    @Tippa: thanks, babe. It was great getting back on the computer and catching up on your cruise updates. I love following along on all the places you go... although I'm sure Maxie is happy to have you home. Thanks for the prayers.

    @Sherri: Furry friends is right. I knew I really was getting stronger when Riley started getting ornery again. He seems to know just when I can take it and when I can't :)

    @amy: Thanks... glad to hear you're able to stay at your mom's... hope all that works out ok.

    @crazydaisy: :) thanks. You certainly know what it means to come back from something.

    @neas: that tub saves my sanity. There is nothing that helps me more than warm water. They are really expensive and I'm lucky that my handicap waiver covered it. It doesn't have jets or anything, but it's the opportunity to sit in the water that is so therapeutic to me.

    @vicky: :) thanks. I really have gotten more than I've given... that's not being humble, I swear. I'm just counting my many blessings; you included! :)

    @jess: it is scary how much time we can waste on here isn't it? It's like my new full time job :)

    @mandy: there's no one I'd rather be back with :) reading your tweets about Georgia definitely helped pass my time when I wasn't typing...

  16. Glad to hear that you are doing better, Gitz! I think it is so cute that you have such perfectionism even in illness that you want to have a post to put up for "sick days". I, for one, love your candor and enjoy your posts so much. It's often a reflection of my own heart in chronic illness. Glad that you're experiencing better days, friend!

  17. I'm so glad you're feeling better. I missed you and I'm so glad Susie stepped in a let us know what was going on. I would have had a hard time making it to check on you when I can hardly get intown to Atlanta! But I would have tried!!!
    Love to you Sweetie~

  18. Have been away for the holiday, but had to come and see how you are doing & I'm really glad to see you back. I'm thankful for that!

  19. Good friends are such blessings aren't they? They are too cute. Glad you are feeling much better. killer bathtub huh...I think maybe you should call it the healer.

  20. Good thoughts, thanks.

    ("Put my head through the wall"...funny, I always say I want to bang my head against the wall in those really bad moments. ;-) )

  21. I am so glad you are doing better. I might have skipped out on the blog and email world for a few days, but I was still thinking of you. It is such a relief to know you are moving around again.